Have you ever...

Had the feeling you're being watched ?
in the middle of the night, while you're still sleeping?

have you ever felt what its like to have an unnatural thing try to take over your body?

i have ...

maybe it's my fengshui of something, but it seems that i am (quite often) "attacked" by these things (lol or not)

last last last time ... when i was still well around 15 i guess when it started.
Sleeping soundly in bed then feeling something's presence next to me ...
instinctively, i keep quiet and wait for what would happen next
where suddenly, (as it tries to enter me?) i cannot move my body and my breathing becomes harder and harder...
then i see white ... all white not skies not clouds just plain saturated white... there is a aound in the background much like a TV set that is not tuned in "ZzzzzzZZzzzzz" sound
i start to panic, since i can't move or anything.. and i can feel "it's" presence even more clearly now.
It is giving my pressure, pushing me back
panic rises more... i try hard to move my left hand to my throat.. i dunno why too
as i find my voice, i utter a small prayer
continuously
the pressure increases but i fight back
then as sudden as it came, it left me ...
and i sit up in bed, feeling the cold sweat running down my forehead and body..

That happened not once but more times then i can remember...
good thing is, when "it" comes, i know what to do (lol)
dunno why i also anticipate it, as though i want it to try to take over me... just for the fun of feeling that rush of emotions...

after form six, it never happened again but a few days ago it did... i think it was Monday if i aint mistaken...

but since i know how to fight back =) , Bring it On! try la You stupid hantu, momok , ghost , unnatural being , whatever you are... Just try to take over me !

On a side note , i found that i am actually allergic to something!
guess what ... its a type of beer called "pearl river" lol
so yeah , i'm down with rashes since tuesday night ... and its still itchy now
mebe only that type of beer gives me the allergies.. since any other types that i've taken before doesn't seem to have the "rash-aftereffect"
of course mebe it was because i was dipaksa drink that much that night... normally i don't drink =)
we went for some foochow organization dinner at thian court ... and i was forced to drink a few bottles .... so yeah .. mebe thats why =(

The results of the Insurance agent exam thing that i mention some posts earlier has come out
i passed ... an man was i surprised... i was expecting to fail since i didn't touch the book at all !

And the cyber thing... i was planning to borrow some $ from a relative to buka it but ... seems like im having some trouble =( ...
seeing the real cost "renovation, and the com's price etc " and some other factors, the total amount for a really decent Cyber , after asking my friend to do all the required counting, amounts to no less than 200k... that 200k can fund me through swinburne! not once ! but TWICE... in the engineering course that i took brfore dropping it for Culinary Arts...
and that 200k is not including the "hidden costs"

another thing is the problem of the license ... i went to ask already but ...
the license to open a cyber here in Sarawak has been "banned"

so money mebe can borrow that much ... but if there is no license then no talk ma.. i dun wan to open "illegal" business =)