Have you ever...

Had the feeling you're being watched ?
in the middle of the night, while you're still sleeping?

have you ever felt what its like to have an unnatural thing try to take over your body?

i have ...

maybe it's my fengshui of something, but it seems that i am (quite often) "attacked" by these things (lol or not)

last last last time ... when i was still well around 15 i guess when it started.
Sleeping soundly in bed then feeling something's presence next to me ...
instinctively, i keep quiet and wait for what would happen next
where suddenly, (as it tries to enter me?) i cannot move my body and my breathing becomes harder and harder...
then i see white ... all white not skies not clouds just plain saturated white... there is a aound in the background much like a TV set that is not tuned in "ZzzzzzZZzzzzz" sound
i start to panic, since i can't move or anything.. and i can feel "it's" presence even more clearly now.
It is giving my pressure, pushing me back
panic rises more... i try hard to move my left hand to my throat.. i dunno why too
as i find my voice, i utter a small prayer
continuously
the pressure increases but i fight back
then as sudden as it came, it left me ...
and i sit up in bed, feeling the cold sweat running down my forehead and body..

That happened not once but more times then i can remember...
good thing is, when "it" comes, i know what to do (lol)
dunno why i also anticipate it, as though i want it to try to take over me... just for the fun of feeling that rush of emotions...

after form six, it never happened again but a few days ago it did... i think it was Monday if i aint mistaken...

but since i know how to fight back =) , Bring it On! try la You stupid hantu, momok , ghost , unnatural being , whatever you are... Just try to take over me !

On a side note , i found that i am actually allergic to something!
guess what ... its a type of beer called "pearl river" lol
so yeah , i'm down with rashes since tuesday night ... and its still itchy now
mebe only that type of beer gives me the allergies.. since any other types that i've taken before doesn't seem to have the "rash-aftereffect"
of course mebe it was because i was dipaksa drink that much that night... normally i don't drink =)
we went for some foochow organization dinner at thian court ... and i was forced to drink a few bottles .... so yeah .. mebe thats why =(

The results of the Insurance agent exam thing that i mention some posts earlier has come out
i passed ... an man was i surprised... i was expecting to fail since i didn't touch the book at all !

And the cyber thing... i was planning to borrow some $ from a relative to buka it but ... seems like im having some trouble =( ...
seeing the real cost "renovation, and the com's price etc " and some other factors, the total amount for a really decent Cyber , after asking my friend to do all the required counting, amounts to no less than 200k... that 200k can fund me through swinburne! not once ! but TWICE... in the engineering course that i took brfore dropping it for Culinary Arts...
and that 200k is not including the "hidden costs"

another thing is the problem of the license ... i went to ask already but ...
the license to open a cyber here in Sarawak has been "banned"

so money mebe can borrow that much ... but if there is no license then no talk ma.. i dun wan to open "illegal" business =)

Rawr rawr rawr RAwr ...

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...
fighting against a virtual psychologist has never been so confusing and entertaining at the same time lol

ELIZA ! oh Eliza ... the Rogerian Psychologist VS me ... the confused one

Enjoy being confused ...
note the ones with ">>" is me while the ones without ">>" is the virtual psychologist
for easier viewing, i will start with green ">>"
>> Hello.
How do you do. Please state your problem.
>> im bored
I'm not sure I understand you fully.
>> huh?
Please go on.
>> ...
What does that suggest to you ?
>> that you are confusing?
What makes you think I am confusing ?
>> you're a Rogerian Psychologist and yet you dont understand me?
Does it please you to believe I am a rogerian psychologist and yet I don't understand you ?
>> it doesnt please me but it also doesnt change the fact that you ARE a virtual Rogerian psychologist...
Do you sometimes wish you were a virtual rogerian psychologist ?
>> i do not .. if i were i would be the hell as fustrating as you are now
You say you do not ?
>> why cant i say i do not? im not virtual
Do you think you should be able to say you do not ?
>> why cant i ? its my freedom to
Do you want to be able to ?
>> i do not NEED to want to be able to ... i am already ABLE to
Can you elaborate on that ?
>> i told you ...i am already ABLE to
Perhaps in your fantasies we told each other.
>> what kind of fantasies are you fantasising about ?
Why do you ask ?
>> for the sake of who-knows-what
Does that question interest you ?
>> if it didn't i wouldn't ask
Do you think its likely that it didn't you wouldn't ask ?
>> whats wrong with your grammar? are you getting nervous oh virtual one?
Why are you concerned over my grammar ?
>> why cant i be ?
Do you believe this will help you to be ?
>> what the heck are you talking about
What is it you really wanted to know ?
>> how should i know? YOU confused me halfway through
Are such questions much on your mind ?
>> as of now ...YES
You seem to be quite positive.
>> more positive than you are
Perhaps you would like to be .
>> i already am
Do you say you already are for some special reason ?
>> no
Are you saying no just to be negative?
>> im saying no becauses its no
You are being a bit negative.
>> negativity is streaming from YOU
We were discussing you -- not me.
>> so what
What answer would please you most ?
>> that you are fired
What makes you think I am fired ?
>> why should i say anymore
What do you think ?
>> i think that my think of the think that you think is thinkably confusingly thinkable
Your think of the think that I think is thinkably confusingly thinkable ?
>> yes i think of the think that i think is thinkably confusingly thinkable
You are sure.
>> very
But your think of the think that I think is thinkably confusingly thinkable .
>> your think of think thinking thinkable is none of my business
Why do you say your business ?
>> it is none of my business not my business
Does that suggest anything else which belongs to you ?
>> that suggests nothing
Earlier you said your business .
>> which is not my business
Is it important that your business ?
>> what kind of business is more important than the business which is not my business?
Your business ?
>> yea my business
Why do you say your business ?
>> my business here with you is over
Does that suggest anything else which belongs to you ?
>> no
Why not ?
>> goodbye
Goodbye. Thank you for talking to me.
>> RAWR
Does that have anything to do with the fact that your business not your business ?
>> ...
Earlier you said your business .

at this point i just gave up on it lol .....
try the utterly confusable here

note that you have to install somekind of java software for it to work tho
i used the "musang-on-api" - FireFox or as i like to call it.. Gorzillar which coulsnt install the
plugin needed so i had to manual download the file from somewhere...

Powah down !

By heck ... if it wasnt enough of completing the 6 documents Eid handed me the other day, this had to happen !
=(
what happened?
well lets start from Eid's story then =)
Lat sunday(?) or saturday eid msged me and told me this:

Jack.. I got 1 tiny problem.. Kinda funny.. Wana noe wat.. When i woke up 2day...jeng3.. MY COMP GONE! Haha.. Dunno wer go.. My little bro say knk vrus. My dad say dunno. My mom =.=' .. I wan go ur house. Hehe.. D book stil wit me.

so basically, he typed til very late the night before and woke up very late in the morn (or afternoon) to find his com gone =)

so we decided to meet up on tuesday and we did... altho he got a lil sesat and i had to "rasa burnin' " while walking to H0ck Lee to meet him ( cus very hot ba .. afternon 2/3 lidat hehe)

he came my house a while then left at almost 4 to pick his lil bro up ..so i started to type , myself still having 2 sets to go ... so finished my two sets that day and continued with the 6 sets on wed.
then Thurs, i was so happy when i "applied" the finishing touches to my work at around 9+pm at night ..then suddenly, my screen froze ! ( Ah?!) i panickzed a bit then , then i restarted my com , .. no prob load as usual... see the usual "welcome to wondows" loading screen but then.... EIH?! all my files were DELETED !!!! oh hell !

ran the recovery wizard and etc trying to recover the files but to no avail ( i mean yeah got recover some of my older files lar but... the Muet stuff...)
so i then bo pien terpaksa tell Pn Lye that i next day cannot pass her the docs since the docs all gone =( and smsed Del to ask if she knew any other ways to recover files...

the result?

i got a "extension" time till tues to fin the docs so yeah ... that wouldn't be any prob if i was freez
the prob is .. i wasn't "free" =( unless you take away my college assignments, job hunting, interview attending and chore-doing sessions as well as the 3 tests accounting for 10% of my college marks each ( for 3 diff subj's lar) tmr ..haha... )
if those weren't there i would be able to go marathon typing like on wed =)
anyway i was in a dillema since i had only finished a portion of what was left

luckily, at that time Stephen pulak kena a "problem" lol ..He, Jacob, Helly, Ali, and Wilson were chosen to work for the edu department for 1 and 1/2 months ..helping with the typing and etc lor
but somehow they managed to fin all the work given to them in 1 and 1/2 weeks ... and + another 1/2 week doing some other stuff for the ppl there ... the prob is there ... since they fin all the work given to them , theres nothing else for them to do ! LOL so they were told not to go tmr and tues since bo kerja to do haha ... 1 day rm45 you know ? 5 hours nia ! so if 2 days din go is around rm90 gone... they all blame Stephen lor since he's the one ask them to type fast fast =)

so now long story cut short i passed 6 sets to stephen for them to do ( at least let them get rm45 yeah?) and i have a lil time for my assigments tests and etc ... killed 2 birds with 1 stone there..

now i have 1/2 a set left ( why am i updating my blog? i should be typing Muet! )
but i guess i'll fin it tmr or smthing since i'll have to do all the graphs and charts for the six sets i passed to Stephen ( he/they dunno how to do ba)
long nite ahead .... 3X3 chapters to revise ... since i didn't do much revising these few days due to typing and etc
and long nite ahead tmr too =) for the 1/2 set and all the graphs charts to do ... hope i finish them in time to hand over to Teacher... NO i WILL finish tem by wed morn even if it killz me ! WILLPOWA!!!!... zZz...

heh... feeling a bit lonely tho, my main source of sms-es these few weeks never sms me liau =(
did i make him/her angry or smthing? i jz dunno ...


put that aside i think i'll be starting work on the 17th i guess ...part-time at MagicBite fridays, sat's and sun's so my remaining free time will only be on tues afternoon and wed whole day.. unless i find another part time job to fill up those 2 gaps... ( hardworking ne? haha) or if MagicBite wants me to fill up on those days for OT ... ( overtime). Theres also that insurance agent gig thing ... waiting for the results tho should be soon
but im not confident bout the results =(

Facebook ... i tried the korean/jap names app thing...
official results for the quizzy is my Korean name is : Lee Jong Hyuk
and my Jap name is : JAKUKUSON
af all things it ahd to have a "kuku" in the middle hahaha

thats all i guz...

Ps: to Del ; have a good time at KL ! hehe
and to Lynn : Congrats on yr new lappie ! XP

Weird Dream

Firstly regarding the april 1 post ... it seems like no one cared at all huh?
[______ ] fill in this blank with the loneliest feeling you can think of
thats what i felt after april 1 passed...

weird dream last night ... something like me being invited for a movie at a shopping Mall by Yek and Kevin ? this aint right cus yek is not the type to invite ppl go watch movie and Kevin is doing his practical in KL right now.. but.. i guess thats how dreams will go ..
so after being invited, i pulak go invite Del, Lynn and Noel? to go watch the movie together.. i remember being surprised when Del actually agreed to go ..lol the dream progressed on with me arriving at the place and looking for Del, and Lynn .. But i met Yek and Kev first .. and went up to the cineplex.. then i suddenly got a call frm Del? or Lynn? so called call lar but hear no voice de ... like a silent dream gua. Then somehow or the other i "teleported" down to meet them.. they were near the escalator and lynn was carrying a plastic bag (KFC?) . Del came toward me and we walked to Lynn.. chatted a while then went off to the left side where we met Noel sitting on a big maroonish coloured sofa ( modern design and comfy..lol) . After that we went up to the cineplex to book our tickets... and i paid for all of them .. open wallet see aLOT of rm 100 notes... huah.. since when i become so rich =) bought popcorn for the two girls again ... then time for the movie.. suddenly Lynn Del and Noel wanted to go to the ground floor to get something? so Lynn ikut Noel use the escalator down while i teman Del use the lift to go down since we both seemed to be malas to jalan so far...
Entered the lift was okay .. but halfway down the lift stopped (!!) somehow break down or something . So we both kin tio inside the lift.. then the weird thing start to happen . The door of the lift is the very-berkilat type of door like a mirror but a bit blurred ... it was gold in colour too.
My Friend Alan appeared on the surface of the door and we started to talk(?) wth lift break down kin tio but a friend appear like that still talk normally with him? haha .But Del seemed very takut and was hiding behind me ... Alan said that he was in the lift above us... above us ? how can got lift above us not logical leh .. anyway he said that the lift he was in also stopped functioning and some other thing i forgot...
Then he looked very surprised and pointed behind me . Immediately the atmosphere change to macam in ghost stories when hantu appear... the gold berkilat door change colour to greyish-sliver ..still berkilat but cannot reflect things and we were surrounded by a bit of black mist ?
that slowly appeared from opposite the door. Of course we both very takut and i heard someone scream.. who?Not me and not Del since it didn't sound like Del... . The Black mist then berkumpul and formed into something? some human shape i think and grew red eyes... I then tarik Del who macam frozen beside me to my back a few moments before that mist thing lumped at me.... ... then i don't know what happened next cus i woke up sweating cold sweat...

Weird dream? and it doesnt make any sense whatsoever...

On a side note, The Old DBKU libary has been taken down or rather is being taken down ... memories of the old times there ..gone with the dust and rubble...

BULLSH*T

i rather just DIE ...
goodbye world i'm gonna end this pathetic life of mine