Oh Noes !!!!! EXAM !! ....

Ahhhh~ next month we'll be getting our results !

Ahhhh~ NEXT month i'll be having my exams ! lol

as mentioned beforehand i've found another part time job ...
as an insurance agent...
*now don't go running away now~ i wont hunt you down and lecture you about insurance policies lar =] ..*

This is the form for the exam... its gonna [ already has] take a bite out of my wallet ... rm40 to participate in the exam ...

THIS is what i have to study ... [ NOES~!] ... the font is veerrryy small ! ... and there are Maanny chapters to go thru ...

so i'll be sitting for it sometime early march i guess .. the date isn't confirmed ... but i'll have to "study" the books by next week ... cus the branch manager of amassurance will be coming to give us a pre-exam ...

still i guess its no sweat .. if form 3 kids can pass why i can't ! lol if dun pass then really sia soi myself sia =]

on a side note, del's blog today gave me a surprise [ altho the post was on sunday] haha
Del ! your Vid Veri nice ! hope to see more from you~ =]
here's the link ! XD SiniH!

ps : leave some comments in the chatbox ... it's feeling so deserted now =] other than lynn's presense there

The Life so far

Huh.. its been quite a busy week haha.. with the intervention of night security shifts ...
i haven't slept since sunday nite ! till now ... gosh my record of 3+ days of no sleep has been broken lol.. with bad consequences lar .. my eye bags bertambah teruk i guess...

Monday .. basically a in and out day , making reservations to fix the lubeng properly etc .. since the lubeng that i covered is " not cantik?" so went and got some ppl to come fix the hole sometime *soon*

Tues... morning went out over to the general hospital near school .. Checkup ! i tio cancer ! ..no lar just joking .. actually went over to Darren's house to meet up with Stephen .. and later we walked .. yea walked all the way to somewhere Greenroad there at around 8am to meet with his Teacher , Raphael ... we were going to ask about a job .. well we went over but he wasn't there yet so went and had break' first then went to meet with Raphael again ... got the job ... for making surveys for AmBank's insurance thing or Amassurance .. so long story cut short , we went around the Ambank area near school , hopoh centre , and school [ lol ] to do our surveys ... mana tahu we both sik berani berani wan approach the ppl as we havent got the licenses and uniform yet ... ... well not sik berani lar , i did approach the ppl but kenak give that look " i dun percaya you.. you are penipuh" kind of look ..which i guess is a biasa de thing since there are alot of lauchiens / con-mans out there.
Anyway ... we walked around the whole time (so i guess i'll be losing weight haha ... that'll be a good thing for me) :] and we got what ?
only one proper survey... are all those people really THAT busy ? i mean yea they do look busy and they do act busy ... but they just hang around the place for 1/2 an hour after you first asked them to spare a little time ... so are they really that busy ? or they don't want to "waste" thier time [ which i see is already wasted] to do a simple thing as a survey ... if you say your busy then show it ! dont hang around like that ! ...
walked around till 2+ before we went to school to rest a while .. seriously school is like the only place we can go when you dont know where to go anymore haha ... met with Pn Lye ! she was really busy though ... so i volunterred to help with some MUET typing ...
after the short stop at school ... we walked around trying to get somemore ppl for surveys but finally at 3+, near 4 , we "gave up" haha... at that time we had walked from school to near 3rd mile area ... we were tired...stressed and tired... and stressed even more ... so we ended up in a... tada !

sigh... in the heat of the moment we went there and played ... although i promised myself never to go to cybers again ... yea i hereby renew my pledge not to gaming anymore ...

Wed: went to school in the morning around 9+ and met with Pn Lye to get the MUET stuff ... turned out that everything was with Brian ... and he was supposed to come over to pass the stuff to us ... and turned out that he couldn't make it ... i say no more ...
so while Pn Lye photostated some other Muet stuff for me to type, i walked over to Darren's place again to meet with stephen again .. later around 10+ after the recess period we, reached school, got the Muet things from Pn Lye and later met up with Pn Wong [survey] haha .. then we agreed to help her with a presentation that she has to do in 2 weeks time masa assembly .. so research is needed , and the powerpoint has to be made ... + the Muet stuff , i'll be typing for days to come ...

Thurs : mornin had a mini meeting at home .. then afternoon did some typing ... most of what Pn Lye has given to me has been completed ... around 40% more to go i guess ... started on the pp presentation , but only made one slide =]

Fri : got a msg from Agan bout the river trip ... and then later came online on msn to see if there was anyone around to chat with ... there were 7 ppl on but sadly no one was free to chat haha ...
its 4 now and im bored ;[ if you ask me to go back to typing the Muet stuff , i'd say not now ... i wanna rest a bit since tonight will be my 6th sleepless night ... WHERE are those ppl ... even tho i called them to come [ phones everyday ] they still haven't appeared .. well they did .. to see the damage and to take measurements but ... they still are not here to fix it properly yet ...

Sat : tmr .. yea its tmr ... but i think i have 2 options to take tmr ...
1) go with Agan and the others to the river gathering or
2) go to work again ... walking walking walking walking ...

personally i'd opt for no 1 haha but since lynn x go = del x go ... i dont think the trip will go on
so i guess its no 2 for me tmr ...

Random pics that i forgot [ lazy] upload the last time
the busy ones on talentine ... the girl in the white shirt sitting down looks like she is pointing "that" finger haha
Ryan Kenny Jee ! the first preformance that reallly sounded great ! -singing "My heart will go on" by Celine Dion
The Mask Shufflers ... nice movements by the one in Black makes me give em a thumbs up
Near the end of the show ... some break dancers ... also a thumbs up preformance

G-Chan , Lynn and Jane before the event ended ... with Agan's Brownies

Now ... thats all for now ... my head is aching , and tmr will be walking day .. so i'll be resting a while

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my hamster is gone ...

my house almost tio atk ...

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i found my hamster ! .. it was hiding in a hole
it apparently made a hole and escaped it's house / cage this morn ...
found it at 7+ ... with lots of small scraps of food in its new "home"
greedy lil thing ...

my house is barricaded now ... at least the hole is ... so i'll be up whole nite tonight and morn too as extra security ... sms me ! haha if not i'll be sien ...

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With that put aside ... updates now ..

Wed night went to the so called circus with Del , Lynn , Agan , and Jo .. as well as my fam but we didn't sit toegther tho ...

i thought it would be the type with cute fluffy animals but turned out to be the type with big ugly beasts [ guys in tight suits ]

anyway Agan and the girls left earlier cus they were worried about the traffic .. but the detoured to airport's starbucks ? .. why didn't invite me o.o haha

stayed a bit longer then .. and left right after that .. the blaring sounds of thick-accentness was getting to me and Jo ...

that was wed ...

Fri night ... i hate that day the most ... cus its fri the 13th ? bad things seem to happen to me on that day ... or it might be just me ...

supposed to have gone to the PlanetShaker's concert .. but ended up not going as some ppl that i asked to go couldn't / didn't want to go ... but the main reason was i had a sudden call to go off to work ...

dunno why that night i couldnt stop thinking of somebody's actions on a certain night not so long ago ... she knows yea .. since i sms-ed her haha ... the even more amazing thing is that when i checked her blog this morn i found a post simillar to the subject i sms-ed her about ... no i didn't read the post yet so i didn't know bout it ... only thru her facial expression that night ...

so i'll say it again here for her ... dont worry cus i'll be there

that was friday ...

saturday :
love is in the air .. that's true for some and not for others ... even tho v-day can be celebrated both by couple's and single's ...
woke up extra early .. round 5 am ...
went for break and later picked stephen up and headed over to Greenroad area supposedly to get a job .. turned out the guy didn't show up ... so we walked over to school for the talentine in the afternoon ...
reached around 10+ .. sweating like mad ... so we seeked refuge in the teacher's office by dropping by Pn lye's table to say hi ...
seems she was surprised since it was so early but we were in school already ...

went to have a drink over at Liza's place /spot ? till around 12+ before we went back to school
1.30+ .. after lynn finally appeared , we went in ...
i was labelled as "penjaga bag" *sigh*
5+ tired of the horrible [ most of it] music we went out ...
dont know who won ... maybe its that guy that sang celine dion's "my heart will go on"
or the shufflers "mask shufflers" or the beat box guy ...

some pics were taken ... some are forbidden to be posted some are not .. but im lazy to post up so i'll label all as forbidden :]

as for the night ... i wont say nothing so dont ask ..

now where's that lynn ... i wanna bincang with her smthing but she's nt on msn yet :[

Heart Break ..

How painful it is to see the girl you like with anther guy
How painful it is to see it through your own eyes
How painful it is to be alone
How painful it is to cry

How painful it is to see someone you care about worry
How painful it is to not be able to do anything
How painful it is to feel useless
How painful it is to cry

How painful it is to see her , but to know that your not in her eyes

to be there but to seem like you're not there at all for her

to want but not to have

to love but not be loved ...

Tagz

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now that some have responded , i hereby add a new rule :P
answer honestly XD

next tag victims : Brian ,Jeremy, Row, and Tay :P Good luck !

Tagz !

Lets see :P to make it clear no one tagged me ... i tagged myself haha

for now i'll limit the tag to anyone you want :P
and i'll start with Del and Lynn ! haha

lets start ;]

1. What's your name ?
Jackson , but people call me all sorts of names , Jack , Jacko , Jack n the beanstalk , Micheal Jackson [lol?] ,biscuit, cookies [ recently .. ;p you know who you are] , Menkuang , Ah Ja , Guang-guang , and some other names that i don't like and won't enlighten you with ;p

2. What's your favorite thing to wear ?
em , currently i throw on anything thats wearable XD or looks good on me ? [ mebe my fashion sense is crooked ? lol seriously i don't know ]

3. Last thing you ate
PORK . With the crispy skin .. Yea im chinese so im non Halal ~ Muslims beware ! ;p

4. One place you will NEVER eat at
if there exists a place where ALL the dishes they serve contains the following ingredients , count em out of muh list ~

Ingredients to a eatery exiled from my brain :
Brinjals , Bittergourds , Sea cucmbers , Celery ... thats all i can think of now

5. I say Shotgun , you say
Crap ! run fast far far away !
[ if there are bullets loaded and i happen to have done something wrong XD]

6. Last person you hugged
hmm ... oh yea ! Pn Lye ! after the visit on cny XD

7. Does anyone you know want to date you ?
... How should i know :P .. i hope so ? haha

8. Would you date anyone you met online ?
Sure ... but after considering all the circumstances , nah ... or till we get to know each other better

9. Name something you like physically about yourself
my hair ? grow longer will ya ?

10. The last place you went out to dinner to
BlaBlaBla ;p no pics tho ... but i almost killed the Koi ! [ steped on it ]

11. Who is your best friend ?
I have lots of good friends , but best friend ? dun think so

12. What time of the day is it ? 10.01 pm ... but by the time i finish this, it'll say different in the "posted at" section below

13. Who/What made you angry today ?
the fish ? haha ... stuck to the pan as soon as i put it in ... throw all the blame to me now XD the chap goh may fish has been chau ta-ed ! [slightly]

14. Baseball or football ?
neither ... i dun see the point in both ;p or maybe i will someday ...

15. Ever gone skinny dipping ?
Hell no ... i wouldn't want to blind anyone that might accidentally "see" some things ;[

16. Favorite type of food
Butter Prawns ! the creamy type! and it must be crunchy !

17. Favorite Holiday
All holidays should be favorite holidays ;] you get to slack off

18. Do you download music ?
Of course ... i live in the country where cetak rompak is king ! and downloads are emperors !

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty ?
BAN DIRTY SOCKS ! ! ...

20. Opinion of chinese symbol tatoos
Get that needle away from me !

21. Would you date the person who posted this ? [ more specifically tagged you ]
i date myself ? hmmm... thats a nice idea ? lol ...

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally ?
yea ? my nephew singing me a cny song this year .. and after that asking me for Angpow :[

23. Do you love anyone ?
YES ! ... i love my mami , daddy , sis the 1st , sis the 2nd , g'ma , unc's , aunt's , cuzzies , fam, friends, people i do not know .. okay ... were getting off track here ;p

24. Are coloured contact lenses sexy ?
sexy ? interesting maybe ...

25. Have you ever Bungee jumped ?
NO. Hell no ... i suffer from a phobia called too-high-in-the-air-scares-the-wits-out-of-me!

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
nope , but i'd like to try it

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
no... try 40 years older ... back while i was working with lokthian ,
Amah customer : ee this kid so cute .. so round !
me : Aunty , what would you like to drink ?
Amah customer : you ... can boh ?
me : [ walks far far away] ... pukes

28. How many pets do you have?
one + one + a few -one ... and - alot more
a hamster , a lonely fish , a lot of unlonely fish , and a ex-dog named Fu Qi ...
the - a lot more are the ones that were around last time while i was small , namely Sandy the rotwellier , Chilli the ... dog with the long type of body ... dashchund? , a lot of fish , some turtles , and etc etc ...

29. Have you met a real redneck?
whats a red neck ? you mean the type of ppl who are so fat that their necks buldge out showing that pinkish-red colour ? in that case ... no , Msia only has BLACKnecks

30. How is the weather right now?
cold , hot, cold , hot ... its gone siau ...

31. What are you listening to right now?
the Veronicas -untouched ... like the la la la part ...

32. What is your current favorite song?
i've moved on from the gaza song to click five's summer time ... heard it once on mtv ... but still cant find it on9 lyrics yea ... but song nope ... only broken links

33. What was the last movie you watched?
gosh ...cant remember ... i guess it would be 'moneh not enuf 2' .. that i bought for del ...

34. Do you wear contacts?
i wanna , but they aint compatible with my hands ... i just keep rubbing , keep rubbing [ follow th tune of dory fish frm finding nemo ]

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
Hock Lee centre , specifically Li Garden for work ...

36. What are you afraid of?
refer to 25 ;p

37. How many piercings have you had?
none

38. What piercings do you want?
No idea ... maybe one ?

39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year?
its still a new year ... lots of things to learn ! but for now , laziness is my worst enemy ...

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
hmm ... honestly i've never been to starbucks ... but if i do ... Tall/Grande Caramel macchiato.
no idea what it is so dont ask me but i've heard its good ? lol

41. Have you ever fired a gun
airguns yea .. a real one no ... din't get the chance to go NS ...

42. Are you missing someone?
yep ...

43. Favourite TV show?
in the past ... ~~~ way back before i stoped watching tv , scrubs :p

44. Do you have an obsession with WoW?
i do not WoW and i do not intend to Wow because i am not Wow-ed by it ... DotA was another case ;p same thing with Diablo 2 :LoD - Median XL mod :P which i wasted my life on while it was still median 08 and now when XL's finally out ... blur ? XD http://modsbylaz.planetdiablo.gamespy.com/ check it out ... d2 may be old , but bro laz's mod rocks ! ... oh God why am i advertising ? lol

45. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity?
yea .. a few times .. but i dont remember which ...

46. What celeb do you look like?
i dunno ?

47. Who would you like to see right now?
my friends ... and the beach ...

48. Favorite movie of all time?
no fav's ... but if i must , Just follow the Law

49. Do you find yourself loved?
yes at times no at others

50. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to?
Hahahaha .... who hasn't ?

51. Favorite smell?
lemonish ? minty too

52. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Buttered and salted to perfection ! the more the better !

53. What’s something that really bugs you?
not being given the credit i deserve :P

54. Do you like Michael Jackson?
gosh ... one of my nicknames is the guy himself ... his music yeah ... HIM .. no way

55. Taco Bell or Burger King? [ converted to msian tastes , KFC or McD?]
i'd prefer McD for burgers, KFC for chicken

56. What’s your favorite perfume?
i had this lavender-greentea spray that i thought was nice at first .. but am sick of it now ... what am i gonna do with the 2nd bottle ? the 1st was used up in the epic spray fest in school last time [ if any of you remember XD]

57. Favorite baseball team?
...

58. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
PizzaHut ? lol .. as in now once ... but got the answer "line is busy" so hungup and headed to Pizza Junction ...

59. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?
hm.. my record is 4 days ...

60. Last time you went bowling?
oh thats been so long ... if you count me holding the ball while i was 8

61. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
in a Lubuk in LubukAntu , near the S'wak-Indo borderlines back a few months before i joined form 6

62. Who was your last phone call?
Del ! thats you ! lol

63. Last time you were at work?
hmm... last tues ...

64. What is the closest orange object near you?
if its in the screen then its the publish post icon ... if is physical , then that would be my shirt , followed by the two oranges that have been in my room since before cny ... :P

thats all ... finally !

100th post ~ !

Hell yeah ~ its been more than a year since i first started to blog , with the encouragement of Lynn and Del [ thanks lots !] and finally i've hit the 100th post mark ...

coincidentally [or not] its the last day of Chinese New Year over here in Kuching,S'wak,M'sia and there still is the constant echo of fireworks all over .. not soft but LOUD ones like a woofer blasting a inch away from your ear :p but im not complaining , Boom boom season comes only once a year other than some occasional ones like during Raya and etc :p

So Happy Chap Goh May to all my friends out there !
may the new year of the holy cow bring upon you great wealth , happiness and prosperity during these times when the global economy is heading .. well you know ...

with the new year , i've decided on a new quote or motto or zen or whatever you like to call it .. to use during this year :

Look up to the Sky ! cus there aint no hope lying on the Ground !

i plan and hope that following this will make me a better guy in all aspects
be it my confidence , my feelings , my thoughts , my actions , my way in life , my ignorance , my ... bla bla bla ... you get the drift :P

anyway , things to look forward to soon both short and long term :
1) Job hunting tmr
2) Swinburne gates
3) Circus [lol]
4) Relationships
5) Diet
6) Streamyx ! [ hope so ]
7) New Lappy ? [ nt confirmed ]

Thats all for now ...

There's a hole in my heart ...

There's a hole in my heart ... that was once filled by her ..
her lovely sparkling eyes that gaze lovingly at me whenever i meet her
her beautiful mane of hair , so soft to touch ..
she loved it when i stroked her head , scratching her behind her ears ... and
she was always so playful , running around me , trying to leap into my arms
the way she cocked her head slightly when she see's me
the way she nibbled at my hand ...
when i bathed her she just lay down and enjoyed it
we had really great times together .. that i will never ever forget ..

but yet on that fateful day , on the 5th day of the new year ,
the 30th of January 09' ... she died
leaving only a gaping hole in my heart and tears in my eyes
she died ... being hit by a car ... her neck and head was crushed ... blood everywhere
why ...
i only brought her out once a week ... the rest she would be happily waiting patiently ...
goodbye my dear Fu Qi' ... my beloved dog ...
you opened up my heart towards dogs ...
the trauma when i was small has been forgotten with your help ..
forever you will be embedded in my heart ...
in my everlasting memories ...

The only thing i regret now is bringing her out that day ... and that i took her for granted ...
i never took any pictures of her ... but her image is still clear in my mind..