Frustration ...

You know ... there are these days where you feel that you are being ignored by your friends... you sit in the classroom and although they do talk to you ... its just for a while ... you cant help but feel envious that they are all interacting so vividly with each other ... talking happily , chatting etc ... In so many ways you feel left out ... especially when they make plans to go out but do not invite you to tag along... it really feels like you do not even exist ... or you have ceased to exist ... Well it might be true that you are a bit moody ...looking a bit down ... but if you put on your best face when they finally turn around to ask you something ... they wont know what pain you're feeling will they ? If you try your best to smile .. they wont know .... But if everyday passes like this ... you wont be able to stand it ... and will therefore try to vent your feelings on ... well things or people .. you start to think ... am i really considered as your friend ? or are am i considered just as one of those chow ah bengz or chow otaku's in the class?

-Written by frustrated guy craving for attention from certain friends ... have i done somthing wrong ? has hate overidden your mind ? it hasn't been just today ... it has been that way for past a week ... no... almost two weeks ....